Jeryuen's missing piece

生日

2010-07-02T21:55:00.000-07:00

我的生日又要到了。。
生日对我来说是很重要的一天。。
每年我都会很期待生日的到来，
但是每当生日越接近是我就越难过了。。
因为我知道不会有几个人会记得我的生日。。
我常常都会去记得朋友的生日但是自己的生日却常不被忘记。。
只要一说到生日我都会很灰心，
我常常都会想，今年又会有多少人能记得这一天呢？
我只能告诉自己说，算了吧，今年又不会有多少个人记得了，又是十根手指都数得完了。。
真是很无奈啊！！

First Individual Presentation

2010-01-27T22:19:00.000-08:00

Today is my first individual presentation..
Have to wear formal today..

I was a bit nervous when i was presenting just now..
I planned to play some jokes..
But i forgot all about that when i was presenting because of nervous..

Almost everytime i'll be like this because of nervous..
My presentation was quite clear but it was a bit informative so it would be quite boring..

But i'm glad that i dun have to read too much from the slides and i can speak using my own words..
At least i'm improving..
Compare to the presentation when i was in secondary school, now i have improved to less nervous and more confident..

I'll try my best to improve my speed because i talked a bit slow..
I have no other choice because i'll be stammer if i talk too fast..

And i'll try to improve my joking skill also..
This can help to prevent my audiences to feel boring..

There will be another individual presentation on next friday..
But this time i dun have to wear formal...
I'll try my best to improve what i have to improve..

I'm disappointing??

2010-01-27T22:05:00.000-08:00

I'm disappointing??
Den u are more disappointing...
I thought u said u wont force me to join??
Den why are u forcing me to join now??

I just busy to go to the business motivation, do u have to say i'm disappointing u??
Cant i be busy??
I understand that u had left not much time to do this business in Malaysia because u have to study in Australia..
But do u really have to force me like that..
U are the one who want to let your business great as fast as u can but I'm not u..

If i really wanna join den of course i'll join...
Do u have to chase me like that??
Even i join after u left Malaysia, Vincent can help me, isn't it???

U let me feel more disappointed!!
I tell u i dun wanna join now!!

Everything is end

2010-01-27T21:21:00.000-08:00

Yea.. everything is end.. our friendship end..

Now..
I'm just your classmate..
U wont talk to me if there is nothing important to talk about..
and i'm doing the same thing also..

U thought i want to do this too??
I'm doing it too because i have no choice..
I know u wont talk to me if i ask u something that is not important for u..

WHY??
I still dun understand that why we have to choose this way after a simply quarrel..

B4 this, u made me angry a few times also but did i say anything??
I think u dun know what was that..
so i'll tell u now..

Do u know that actually i hate my friends that afraid of others to say something that is not the truth??
Last time, it was a sunny day..
We walk home together from school..
I knew it was hot therefore i dun mind to share my umbrella with u..
But what did u say, do u still remember it??
U said:" Ei, dun do this please, I got girlfriend already.. p/s: She was your X's gf now..
Do u really have to say like that??
We are friends, isn't it??
I was really angry at that moment but i never say anything to u..
After some times, i left it beside already,,

I really dunno why...
Why there are people like this who always afraid that others will misunderstand or say something that is not the truth????
I know that almost everyone afraid of it but do u really have to scare until like this??
Do u really have to try to run far away just to avoid these???????
I'm not talking about u only, i'm also talking about some others..

Now i'm thinking about that..
After we finish this course and den we continue our degree but different courses, will u say 'hi' to me??
Will u ask me 'how are you?'...
Actually, i knew the answer already..
I knew u wont want to talk to me even a word..

What a pity...
Everything ends...
Just because a simply quarrel..

But.. u're still my friend forever..
Thanks for removing the sting of the bee from my leg when i was stung by bee..
Thanks for everything..
Dun feel lazy to your homework..
Good luck for u..

My frens

2010-01-10T00:14:00.000-08:00

Elin... my classmate and also my fren from my college..
the only one who is always free to accompany to shop..
but she went back to Sarawak..
i know her ambition is to become a teacher..
and now her dream comes true so i never ask her y is she going back..
after she went back, i think no one else is free to accompany me to shop..
my other frens are always busy because they have thier own activities..
i'll miss Elin and maybe i'll go Sarawak to visit her if i can..
take k.. good luck!!!!!

Benjamin, my primary school classmate and also my best fren..
he's going to study in Austalia next month..
he change alot.. haha.. talk alot..
after so many years, now only we have the time to gather with each other..
but he suddenly said tat he's going to study in other country..
i dunno tat will we still have the chance to gather together or not..
he's always protecting me since we were in primary skul..
i'll miss u too!! dun forget tat i'll be one of ur band's member!!
take k and i know u can become a good and intelligent doctor..
do ur best!!

at least u answer me

2010-01-08T09:27:00.000-08:00

at least.. u answer me..
at least.. i stil can talk to u..
even we wont go back to the last but at least we're stil frens..

i know.. i cant talk tat much with u lik b4..
i know we're not good fren anymore..
we cant share our secret anymore..
we wont walk home together anymore..
u wont smile at me anymore..
we wont do or discuss our homework together anymore..
we wont do revision together anymore..
or even u wont appreaciate our frenship anymore..

but.. i'm already very comfort tat we wont have to be lik enemy..
i think ur life is changing..
i think u got a new target and forgot about something tat made u unhappy..
is good.. i feel happy for u also..
muz be happy!!!
good fren or just normal fren also not important anymore..
juz remember.. u're always my fren..

FRIEND??

2010-01-04T05:18:00.000-08:00

Hahaha.. fren?
Not fren anymore????
Wat to say?? I really dunno wat to say..
For me, frens are always important to me..
But, it was hurt to hear tat, for them, i'm not important at all..

After quarrel den we are not fren anymore??
Hahaha... U chose to do so den wat can i do??
Yea, i'll respect ur choice..
If not??? Wat else can i do?? nothing..

For me, u were my important fren..
I stil remember that when we 1st met...
U were sad, felt complicated, den u come and ask for help..
Tat time, i really did try my best to help u..
When u were sad, i try to be by ur site..
U wanted me to accompany u to watch movie i never refuse..
Y i stil remember so much about tis?? I think u might ask..
Is becau i appreciate our frenship..

After u knew my frens and i started to feel tat i was annoying..
Wat to say?? I had no choice cause tat was ur choice..
Sad?? Yea, sad to lost my important fren..
But at tat time u were stil my fren..
Now, are u stil my fren?? For me, of course..
But, for u?? I think i was nothing.. right??

Sad.. really sad..
If some stupid guys scold me lik tis i would only feel annoying, tats all..
But now is different, u are my fren, u know??
But u chose to scold me lik tat???
Haha... hahahahaha...
Wat else can i say????????????

P/S: 'hahaha' did not mean tat i was laughing..

没有方向的我

2009-12-14T06:49:00.000-08:00

你怎么突然回来了？
为什么？
到底为什么你要在我已经习惯一个人后才回来？
这几个月你都没什么改变，可是我却改变了很多。

当初我需要你时你在吗？
我现在都不需要你了你就突然回来。

你当初就因为顾虑太多而丢下我一个人，
你知不知道我花了多少时间才能变回我自己，才能不再想你的事啊？
你知不知道我遇到很多不如意和不开心的事啊？
而这时你在哪里啊？

本来我以为你是我所见过最合格的男生所以当初的我是多么的喜欢你啊。
可是，你离开后我遇到了一个比你更合格的人，
他至少不会像你那样逃避一切，
但是我和他因为一些原因已经没机会在一起的，
我和他永远都是朋友，
而且他一时也会问候我，不像你。

现在的我真的不懂该怎么办才好，
我还找不回当初喜欢你的感觉，
也不懂到底找不找得回。

我只能说是你自己离开太久了，
都只能怪你自己啊。
我都不知道还能不能够相信你了，
你一时一样，一时想要一起，
一时又怕我会因为你的个性而受伤之类的，
我真的无话可说啊，你真的想太多有的没的了，我最怕这样的人了。

总之，顺其自然吧。

现在的心情

2009-12-10T01:03:00.000-08:00

林壮奇，你知道吗？我真的很庆幸我离开了你。我和你真的有够不适合，我们的意见永远都不同而也都不肯接受对方的意见，总是一直一直在吵。不过，因为经历了我才能变得更懂事，也知道不适合就是不适合，怎么样也没办法在一起。说真的，现在只要我碰到性格和你蛮像的人我都会很害怕他们，不是说我再乱说，是真的，我真的有在怕。
离开你的生活我过得很自在也很自由，没有你烦我真好。
只要想起你就很烦，以前每天都是在和你争论一些有的没的，真的很烦很烦。
你现在过得很好我就祝福你，不过可以不要烦我吗？
我写什么我喜欢就好了啊，你可不要管那么多吗？
还有，你以为我在离开你之后就不会遇见别的人事物了吗？我写的难道就只能是你吗？你可以不要那么爱吗？

突然间有些人想回头，你们无不无聊点啊？现在才后悔？想回头？你们知不知道你们有多好笑？我最最讨厌你们这种人了，当初想那么多又怎么样，结果也不是还一样吗？那你们还想那么多来干什么？结果就是只剩下后悔，无聊。

爱情？现在对我来说都不重要了，有就有，没有也罢。我有很多好朋友就够了，朋友才是最重要的，要珍惜啊。

gathering again

2009-12-09T08:49:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to share these photos.. They are all my friends from my hometown(Bentong)..
I miss them so so so much.. Muz take good care ^_^

Hari Raya

2009-09-28T22:26:00.000-07:00

These are those photos I took when I went to a malay friend's house who name Aina, a classmate of mine when I was in secondary school..

I went her house with my secondary school's classmate when Hari Raya..

I miss my secondary school's friends very much now..

They're always my nice friends..

Primary school's gathering

2009-09-27T22:16:00.000-07:00

Last week, my primary school's friends and I were having gathering at KFC.. This is the first time we had a gathering after we finish studied primary school.. When I was in primary school, my class had 40 pupils but only 14 of us present. Most of them were so busy..

When I was in primary school, there were many bad memories because I was always bully by classmates and teachers but of course there are still some good memories that I appreciate a lot..

Now, all of us already matured.. Some of us are working now, some of us are studying in form six and there are also some of us are studying in college..

That day we chat until 2 o'clock in the midnight because we start gathering at 9.30pm. We chat many funny things on that day..

Besides that, I was shock when I heard that one of our friends got married with someone and she is now pregnant.. Aih.. I have no comment on that but this news really surprised me..

This was the photos I took before I go to the gathering..

See, 14 of us are in this photo..

This is Wai Kit, he's now working at a bakery..

This is Chai Yee and Chiew Mon, Chai Yee is studying in form six while Chiew Mon is studying in Tar College..

This is Jun Lun, he is the most clever person between us, he is now studying in Taylor College now.. Aih.. My face looks fat in this photo..

This is Weng Wai, he is studying in Tar College now..

This is Chai Yee and Pik Yen, Pik Yen now is also studying in Tar College..

Behind me are Yeong Hong and Weng Wai, Chai Yee is beside me, Yeong Hong now is studying in form six, he choose to study Biology and I told him that I hope he can become a forensic because my ambition is to be a forensic but I don't have the ability to do that..

The one beside me is Chun Yen, he is now studying the public relations in KL, I think this subject is very suitable for him cause he is creative..

This is Shuen Yuean, he is studying in form six in my secondary school, many of my junior like him.. In this photo, my face looks very fat also..

This is Yeong Hong, he looks cute right?.. When he was in primary school he is cute until now.. He is also a shy person..

I took this photo with Chai Yee in front of a big mirror, Chai Yee is my good friend, we sit together in our class two years, we always share our secret together.. What secret is that?.. sorry, cant tell you =p

Steam Boat

2009-07-14T07:28:00.000-07:00

We're now in the room I rent.. My roommate is Tiffany.. She is the one who organize this steam boat party.. All are in the same class that is foundation in art and design except me.. haha.. I'm the only one who are taking foundation in business admin...

From the left: Kate, Steven, me, Christ, Simon and Ming..

Tiffany(my roommate), me and Kate(from Sabah)

From the left: Christ, Simon, Ming, Tiffany, Kate and me

I'm glad that I met these guy in KBU.. Because of them I won't be alone anymore.. Even we're in different classes and even different course, I still hope that we're friends forever..

1st day in KBU international college

2009-07-14T07:14:00.000-07:00

This is my 1st day in KBU..
We're having ice breaking that organize by Student Council.. Wednesday having interview.. I hope tat I can pass in the interview so that I can join this club..

5SN gathering

2009-06-24T00:52:00.001-07:00

5Sn means 5 science.. The class that I studied when I'm in Form 5

My classmates and I are always having gathering.. My class had 39 person.. It is so surprising that all of us are in good relationship.. Everytime when we are having gathering we shall take many photos together.. Every gathering must have someone absent..

Hehe.. So many people,right?? But the amount of people is just less than half from our class.. Many others classmates are so busy studying..

First line: me, Chai Yee, Soke Yan, Elie
Second line: Lingky, Shao Min & Chris

First line: Soke Yan, Elie, Chai Yee, me
Second line: Ling, Shao Min & Ah Chai

me, Soke Yan, Ah Chai, Ling & Chris

Is me and Elie^^

Is me and Soke Yan

David and me

Ling and me

Kah Wuan and me

Chai Yee and me

Chris and me

Ah Ben and me

Kor Yan and me

David, me and Soke Yan

Ling, me, Elie and Chris

me, Kwai Yoong and Elie

me, Soke Yan and Elie

Kor Yan, me and Chai Yee

First line: Kah Wuan, Kor Yan, Kwai Yoong, Elie, Soke Yan
Second line: Chai Yee, Shao Min & me

I really dunno why Shao Min keep using this poise to take photos with us.. Maybe she wants to follow those singers' poise.. Many singers will take photos with their fans using this poise.. Haha..

me, Elie, Ling, Kwai Yoong and Kor Yan

Soke Yan and me^^

Actually, there was one more person beside Soke Yan.. That person was Elie.. Three of us wanna take a photos together but Chris played joke on Elie.. He zoom his camera so that this picture do not have Elie.. Hahaha.. So bad right?? Not only Chris.. Ling like to do this so..

me, Soke Yan, Elie, Kwai Yoong,
Kah Wuan & Kor Yan

Capture using Mirror

2009-06-23T08:15:00.000-07:00

Elie, Chris and me

Elie, Chris and me

Me and my friends took some photos in friend (Christopher)'s house.. Hehe.. That was so enjoying and the pictures we took are so nice using mirror..

Elie and me

Haha.. Our face were dark because of the flash from Chris phone.. If don't have thet stupid flash we will look nicer..

Elie and me

See.. Is that so nice?? Hehe

Elie and me again

Hehe.. We were doing ugly face.. But we do not looked ugly actually..

Chris and me

We seldom take photos together.. Can see Elie's head?? Her face was blocked by Chris's laptop..

Still Elie and Me

Hey.. Elie.. My best friend.. Aren't we are so cute?? I know u must think that you're cute.. Hehe..
I love you always, my friend!! Friends Forever!!

PLKN trip (Kem Etnobotani, Gua Musang, Kelantan)

2009-06-22T05:20:00.000-07:00

me and Chee Hui

Haha.. In camp every one calling him 'Lao Fu Zhi'- a character in the comic.. He is a funny person.. Before he cut his hair.. He was very handsome.. Haha... He stayed the same bus with me when we were on the way to the camp but i dun regonise at all until we know each other..

me and Robin Yeo

This is Yeo.. Yea.. Everyone calling him Yeo.. And I'm the one who always shaking my three fingers and saying that .. Hey, yo yo yo, wat's up.. Haha.. He'll feel ignoring after i did that.. Not only me who likes to play jokes with him.. When my friend knew that his name is Robin, she always calling him 'Baskin Robin' and wanted him to buy some ice-cream for us.. He's a person who likes to give advice.. But the way he gives advice is very rude.. He always do something that make people angry.. But when someone get angry because of him.. He'll become worried..

In this camp.. I'm the most pretty girl.. Haha.. I heard this from others.. I feel so surprise when i know that.. Because.. For me, this is totally unbelivable.. I'm a person who dun have self-confident therefore I'll think like this..

me and Liang

Ah Liang is a very cute person.. Hehe.. This is the first time I say a boy cute.. He loves someone that is older than her.. He is same horoscope as me and I'm just 10 days older than him.. His ambition is to be a chief.. He is now studying about cooking in Penang.. Haha.. Stay cute..

me and Ying Rong (my classmate)

Yea.. My classmate.. Hehe.. I have only very few classmate went to the same camp with me.. Ying Rong is one of my classmate that went to the same camp with me.. He is also my good friend.. He knows to play piano and guitar therefore he brought his guitar to the camp.. He often plays the guitar and sings along with his new friends that he meet in the camp.. Sometimes.. I sing with him also.. It was really enjoy to having a nice memory like this.. Now he's studying in UCSI.. I hope that he can stil enjoying when he's studying..

me and Chai Ming

This is Chai Ming.. Lai Chai Ming.. He's always singing in the camp.. I like to sing too therefore I'll always follow him and sing together when he sing the songs i know how to sing too.. His ambition is to be a chief.. Haha.. I'm always wondering that what he cooked is nice to eat or not..

me and Kai Ming (ba ba)

Kai Ming.. He is very tall.. I'm always calling him 'ba ba' means father because of he acted as my father in a group performance in the camp.. I still remember that i act as a little child in the performance.. This character is very suitable for me because I'm a childish person..When I'm in the camp I always said that my 'ba ba' is very tall therefore he has a tall daughter..

me and Song Li (alicafe)

Lim Song Li.. Before being his friend.. He looks very quiet.. But.. After being his friends only i know that he is a funny person.. 'Alicafe' is his nickname.. Do you know who put this nickname for him?? Haha.. The answer is.. Me.. Yea.. I'm the one who put this nickname for him because his friend all calling him ' Ah Li'.. He is very clever.. He gets 9As in SPM...

me and Fauzan (my brother)

I'm not lying.. He is really my brother.. But.. Of course not the same father or same mother.. We're definitely in the different family and we're also different race.. Feeling weird?? Dun think like that please.. For me.. He is my important brother.. I treat him as my real brother.. He's now taking matrix.. And he is doing very well in Add Maths..

me and Hong

I think he was the tallest in the camp.. He is also a nice person.. He is very close with Ying Rong in the camp..

me and nightkid

He was the second taller in the camp.. He is very well to show cute poise.. Hehe.. When his hair is longer he is very handsome..

me and Chai Yee (my classmate)

She was my classmate and she was the one who sitting beside me the whole year of form 5.. We're always sharing secrets together.. Actually.. All are me secrets.. Sometimes we're talking about others people' weird habits.. But.. Sometime she is easily get angry.. I'll feel scare when it happens.. haha..

me and Lee Peng (sha po)

Ho Lee Peng.. She told me that her friends always call her 'horlick ping' means horlick ice.. I'm always calling her 'sha po'.. And she's also always calling me 'sha po'.. When others called one of us 'sha po'.. Both of us will give respond.. haha.. Fortunately, she is my best friend and I'm glad that I can meet her in the camp.. And it was very lucky that she lived with me in the same dorm.. Her bed was just opposite to my bed..

me, peng & yin

We were in the forest.. While we were waiting our groups, we took photos to use up the time.. We took many and many photos together.. Three of us were in the same group, same dorm but we comes from different state.. Peng's bed was opposite to my bed while in's bed was beside mine.. Many of our friends was very surprise that we was so close..