没有方向的我

你怎么突然回来了？
为什么？
到底为什么你要在我已经习惯一个人后才回来？
这几个月你都没什么改变，可是我却改变了很多。

当初我需要你时你在吗？
我现在都不需要你了你就突然回来。

你当初就因为顾虑太多而丢下我一个人，
你知不知道我花了多少时间才能变回我自己，才能不再想你的事啊？
你知不知道我遇到很多不如意和不开心的事啊？
而这时你在哪里啊？

本来我以为你是我所见过最合格的男生所以当初的我是多么的喜欢你啊。
可是，你离开后我遇到了一个比你更合格的人，
他至少不会像你那样逃避一切，
但是我和他因为一些原因已经没机会在一起的，
我和他永远都是朋友，
而且他一时也会问候我，不像你。

现在的我真的不懂该怎么办才好，
我还找不回当初喜欢你的感觉，
也不懂到底找不找得回。

我只能说是你自己离开太久了，
都只能怪你自己啊。
我都不知道还能不能够相信你了，
你一时一样，一时想要一起，
一时又怕我会因为你的个性而受伤之类的，
我真的无话可说啊，你真的想太多有的没的了，我最怕这样的人了。

总之，顺其自然吧。

现在的心情

林壮奇，你知道吗？我真的很庆幸我离开了你。我和你真的有够不适合，我们的意见永远都不同而也都不肯接受对方的意见，总是一直一直在吵。不过，因为经历了我才能变得更懂事，也知道不适合就是不适合，怎么样也没办法在一起。说真的，现在只要我碰到性格和你蛮像的人我都会很害怕他们，不是说我再乱说，是真的，我真的有在怕。
离开你的生活我过得很自在也很自由，没有你烦我真好。
只要想起你就很烦，以前每天都是在和你争论一些有的没的，真的很烦很烦。
你现在过得很好我就祝福你，不过可以不要烦我吗？
我写什么我喜欢就好了啊，你可不要管那么多吗？
还有，你以为我在离开你之后就不会遇见别的人事物了吗？我写的难道就只能是你吗？你可以不要那么爱吗？

突然间有些人想回头，你们无不无聊点啊？现在才后悔？想回头？你们知不知道你们有多好笑？我最最讨厌你们这种人了，当初想那么多又怎么样，结果也不是还一样吗？那你们还想那么多来干什么？结果就是只剩下后悔，无聊。

爱情？现在对我来说都不重要了，有就有，没有也罢。我有很多好朋友就够了，朋友才是最重要的，要珍惜啊。

gathering again

Just wanted to share these photos.. They are all my friends from my hometown(Bentong)..
I miss them so so so much.. Muz take good care ^_^

Hari Raya

These are those photos I took when I went to a malay friend's house who name Aina, a classmate of mine when I was in secondary school..

I went her house with my secondary school's classmate when Hari Raya..

I miss my secondary school's friends very much now..

They're always my nice friends..

Primary school's gathering

Last week, my primary school's friends and I were having gathering at KFC.. This is the first time we had a gathering after we finish studied primary school.. When I was in primary school, my class had 40 pupils but only 14 of us present. Most of them were so busy..

When I was in primary school, there were many bad memories because I was always bully by classmates and teachers but of course there are still some good memories that I appreciate a lot..

Now, all of us already matured.. Some of us are working now, some of us are studying in form six and there are also some of us are studying in college..

That day we chat until 2 o'clock in the midnight because we start gathering at 9.30pm. We chat many funny things on that day..

Besides that, I was shock when I heard that one of our friends got married with someone and she is now pregnant.. Aih.. I have no comment on that but this news really surprised me..

This was the photos I took before I go to the gathering..

See, 14 of us are in this photo..

This is Wai Kit, he's now working at a bakery..

This is Chai Yee and Chiew Mon, Chai Yee is studying in form six while Chiew Mon is studying in Tar College..

This is Jun Lun, he is the most clever person between us, he is now studying in Taylor College now.. Aih.. My face looks fat in this photo..

This is Weng Wai, he is studying in Tar College now..

This is Chai Yee and Pik Yen, Pik Yen now is also studying in Tar College..

Behind me are Yeong Hong and Weng Wai, Chai Yee is beside me, Yeong Hong now is studying in form six, he choose to study Biology and I told him that I hope he can become a forensic because my ambition is to be a forensic but I don't have the ability to do that..

The one beside me is Chun Yen, he is now studying the public relations in KL, I think this subject is very suitable for him cause he is creative..

This is Shuen Yuean, he is studying in form six in my secondary school, many of my junior like him.. In this photo, my face looks very fat also..

This is Yeong Hong, he looks cute right?.. When he was in primary school he is cute until now.. He is also a shy person..

I took this photo with Chai Yee in front of a big mirror, Chai Yee is my good friend, we sit together in our class two years, we always share our secret together.. What secret is that?.. sorry, cant tell you =p

Steam Boat

We're now in the room I rent.. My roommate is Tiffany.. She is the one who organize this steam boat party.. All are in the same class that is foundation in art and design except me.. haha.. I'm the only one who are taking foundation in business admin...

From the left: Kate, Steven, me, Christ, Simon and Ming..

Tiffany(my roommate), me and Kate(from Sabah)

From the left: Christ, Simon, Ming, Tiffany, Kate and me

I'm glad that I met these guy in KBU.. Because of them I won't be alone anymore.. Even we're in different classes and even different course, I still hope that we're friends forever..

1st day in KBU international college

This is my 1st day in KBU..
We're having ice breaking that organize by Student Council.. Wednesday having interview.. I hope tat I can pass in the interview so that I can join this club..

5SN gathering

5Sn means 5 science.. The class that I studied when I'm in Form 5

My classmates and I are always having gathering.. My class had 39 person.. It is so surprising that all of us are in good relationship.. Everytime when we are having gathering we shall take many photos together.. Every gathering must have someone absent..

Hehe.. So many people,right?? But the amount of people is just less than half from our class.. Many others classmates are so busy studying..

First line: me, Chai Yee, Soke Yan, Elie
Second line: Lingky, Shao Min & Chris

First line: Soke Yan, Elie, Chai Yee, me
Second line: Ling, Shao Min & Ah Chai

me, Soke Yan, Ah Chai, Ling & Chris

Is me and Elie^^

Is me and Soke Yan


David and me


Ling and me


Kah Wuan and me


Chai Yee and me

Chris and me


Ah Ben and me


Kor Yan and me

David, me and Soke Yan

Ling, me, Elie and Chris

me, Kwai Yoong and Elie

me, Soke Yan and Elie

Kor Yan, me and Chai Yee

First line: Kah Wuan, Kor Yan, Kwai Yoong, Elie, Soke Yan
Second line: Chai Yee, Shao Min & me

I really dunno why Shao Min keep using this poise to take photos with us.. Maybe she wants to follow those singers' poise.. Many singers will take photos with their fans using this poise.. Haha..

me, Elie, Ling, Kwai Yoong and Kor Yan

Soke Yan and me^^

Actually, there was one more person beside Soke Yan.. That person was Elie.. Three of us wanna take a photos together but Chris played joke on Elie.. He zoom his camera so that this picture do not have Elie.. Hahaha.. So bad right?? Not only Chris.. Ling like to do this so..

me, Soke Yan, Elie, Kwai Yoong,
Kah Wuan & Kor Yan